Friday, June 16, 2017

Real Life

Lately, I've *really* been listening to the lyrics on the songs on WAY-FM and K-LOVE.  I've needed to hear these lyrics and let them sink into my heart.  This song came on the other morning on my way to work, and emotions flooded my mind and heart, enabling tears to shed (which I hoped didn't mess up my mascara!)

Your Grace Finds Me - Matt Redman
It's there in a newborn cry
There in the light of every sunrise
There in the shadows of this life
Your great grace

It's there on the mountain top
There in the everyday and the mundane
There in the sorrow and the dancing
Your great grace
Oh, such grace

From the creation to the cross
There from the cross into eternity
Your grace finds me
Yes, Your grace finds me

The rest of the lyrics are great, but these are all the lyrics I needed that morning.  God knew what I needed to hear.  His grace finds me wherever I am.  His grace finds us wherever we are.  And His grace surrounds us, and is in the everyday and mundane, it's in the sorrow, it's in the dancing.  No matter what - His grace is there, and we need His grace.  I need His grace.  

The season I'm in has been beautiful and lovely, and challenging.  It hasn't been what I expected.  I've needed to be reminded of the beauty of grace.  To hear your husband of almost 4 years tell you he doesn't think he believes in Jesus or the creation story, or that some of the Bible stories seem  To hear him say he doesn't think he's a Christian anymore, and the decision to not identify as a Christian gives him freedom for the first time, all while you find out you're pregnant with your first child, just... *can't find the right words*

It's a grieving season. But also a beautiful season because I'm going to be a mom, and my husband is going to be a dad, and our family is growing. I'm reminded of the importance to love my husband and support him, and accept him where he is, and show him grace. Because that's what Jesus did for me.  I think that's what he wants most is love and acceptance.  And I have HOPE that one day he will find that love and acceptance from Jesus Christ. 

Thursday, February 6, 2014

Cool Things

Some cool things about today-

1) My co-worker gave me a piece of Sour Patch gum!!! Delicious!
2) Had lunch with my Mom and it's so cool seeing how her and my dad are growing spiritually at their new church.  Reminds me that no matter your age, you always can be growing spiritually.
3) I'm wearing my awesome high-healed brown booties that Daniel gave me for Christmas today.  It's taken me this long (since Christmas) to work up the nerve to wear them (because I'm afraid of high-heals of any kind).  I have received so many compliments on them and I feel awesome!
4) I've decided to sign up and take another ARE.  Planning to sign up for it next week with another co-worker. Go me!

Ok, that's about all. :)

Hears to more awesome days ahead!

Thursday, January 2, 2014

The Bible

The Bible can be so strange sometimes.  Take this for example:
"In those days, and even afterward, giants [Nephilim] lived on the earth, for whenever the sons of God had intercourse with human women, they gave birth to children who became the heroes mentioned in legends of old."
Genesis 6:4 (NLT)


And what about this:
"And God said, "Let there be space between the waters, to separate water from water." And so it was. God made this space to separate the waters above from the waters below. And God called the space "sky." This happened on the second day."
Genesis 1:6-8 (NLT)

So...there are waters above earth?  That the sky separates?

And yet, in Ephesians 6:10-17 as the whole armor of God is says in verse 17:
"Put on salvation as your helmet, and take the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God."

So all these words of God (which make up our Bible) is our sword?

Out of all the parts of the armor of God, they all are defense weapons, and the sword is the only offensive weapon.  So for us to fight, we need the Bible.  We need God's words.  Yes there are strange parts, but I guess we can't dwell on the parts that don't make sense.  God will provide understanding when we need it, and it all means we need to trust Him.

Friday, December 20, 2013

Real Marriage

Marriage is work, hard work.

It takes effort everyday to be a wife.  Just like it takes effort every day to be a Christian.  It's not something that always comes naturally.  I have to remind myself to do certain things, to refocus my mind, to remember to show gratitude and be thankful, etc.

And it's work to do all that!  But it's work that is worth it.  And when my husband and I have a fight, it's not only looking at his fault, but looking at myself too...what could I have done better?  What do I need to apologize for?  It takes two to have a marriage.  And I'm so glad I have found the right man to do marriage with.  We are learning that's for sure!

And here's a fun little photo from Christmas two years ago, before we were even engaged! :)

Wednesday, November 20, 2013

100 Days of Real Food

I've been following a blog called 100 Days of Real Food.  It's pretty cool!  Someone at church told me about it, and it's full of good, wholesome recipes.  I haven't actually made any of the recipes yet, just reading the recipes and admiring the photos of delicious looking food. :)

I am hoping to try the Whole Chicken in the crock pot one first.  We will see how that turns out whenever I get around to it!

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

New Perspectives

Only God can take something mundane and turn it into a breath of fresh air.

I've been working at the same office for 4 years and 5 months now. It's been my one and only real, full-time, salary job in my major since I graduated college. I made a deal with myself that after working here 3 years, and after living in the same city for 3 years, and if I hadn't gotten married, then I would move on to something else. Well, those 3 years came, and went, and I stayed.  In my fourth year here I got married.  And after my fourth year here, my perspective is starting to change.  I'm beginning to understand my strengths in my job. I'm beginning to find joy in what I do. And I'm beginning to accept that I might actually be in the right career...BEGINNING to accept. I'm not all the way there yet, but I'm headed in the right direction. It is such a joyful feeling and a burden lifted to not have to worry about my career, my job, finding a plan B, etc.  Right now, I feel as if I'm where God wants me, and tomorrow if He wants me somewhere else then He will help make that happen. I'm not worried right now. I'm not fretting. :)

Thank you Lord for presently changing my perspective on my job and my life. I'm learning to depend on you, and not me. Please continue to be patient with me, and in turn I choose to be patient to those around me who are also struggling with how You fit into their lives, and Your plans for their lives. Thank you for restoring joy to my job, and for your everlasting Hope. You are worthy to be praised!

And lastly, thank you Lord for Christian men who run the office I work in.  Their leadership points directly to you, and bless them and their families for their boldness as Christians in the workplace.  I am greatly blessed to work under them. 

Saturday, August 31, 2013

Change. Transistions. Adjustments.

Change.  Transitions.  Adjustments.

Don't we all go through them?  And no matter how great we conquer them, they continue to come, they continue to happen.  We can't stop change.  It's like the seasons...and the seasons are absolutely beautiful.  Yes they take adjustments, and new routines, but it's beautiful.

Being married is so great.  I can't explain in words what it feels like.  It's so great when you find your best friend and you get to live with him for forever!  It is so great to find that person with which to experience any and all changes with for the rest of my life!  It's so comforting and secure and lovely.

It reminds me how God is.  He helps us through change--He makes it comforting and secure and lovely because He is with us during it all.  I didn't have to find that special someone to go through changes/transistions/adjustments with...God has been with me all along to help me through them.  :)

But it is nice to have that special someone.  It reminds me that my husband is a beautiful gift to me from God. God has blessed me with him, and I'm so thankful everyday for him.  My husband helps me overcome so many changes with excitement rather than fear. He believes in me, and it makes me believe in myself.