Monday, February 27, 2012


Relationships are fun when they are easy. But they aren't always easy.
This weekend I had somewhat of a disagreement with someone I really care about. It's been a disagreement between us for a while, but we can't seem to meet in the middle somewhere. It gets frustrating when we try to talk about things, and I can't seem to form words and sentences to explain my thoughts. I feel like Moses.
But Moses pleaded with the LORD, “O Lord, I’m not very good with words. I never have been, and I’m not now, even though you have spoken to me. I get tongue-tied, and my words get tangled.” I don't know why sometimes I can't seem to express my thoughts clearly.

This is what God tells Moses after he gives the "tongue-tied" explanation:  Then the LORD asked Moses, “Who makes a person’s mouth? Who decides whether people speak or do not speak, hear or do not hear, see or do not see? Is it not I, the LORD? Now go! I will be with you as you speak, and I will instruct you in what to say.”

So Lord, I pray my words and thoughts can be expressed more clearly in spoken words, and that those words will come from you, and that I will not be stubborn or closed-minded when there are disagreements, but open to all sides and all perspectives, and respectful of others' opinions. Amen.

Thursday, February 23, 2012

Politics in Romans 13

I overheard two people today having a conversation about politics, upcoming electionspresidential candidates, etc. Politics is not something I understand fully. It's something I tend to stay away from. Now, upon hearing this convo, I thought, "Isn't there a verse or something in the Bible about respecting and obeying the government?" So I sought this verse out. Upon finding it (Romans 13:1) I read the next verse. Then the next, then the whole paragraph of verses, then the whole chapter of Romans 13. Whew. Does that ever happen to you? You seek out one particular verse to prove your point, then you find a whole bunch of other stuff sandwiched in there that you didn't really expect to be there? But it is there. It is God's word. It is God's truth.

I not only learned that we must submit to governing authorities, but that God also says to pay our taxes. That anyone who rebels against authority is rebelling against what God has instituted. That authorities have the power to punish us, and they are God's servants sent for the very purpose of punishing those who do wrong.  That we must give respect and honor to authority figures. That we should owe nothing to anyone, except for our obligation to love one another. And that love fulfills the requirements of God's law. 

Um...anyone else finding all this hard to take in? 

I owe money for college and a car. I pay taxes, but begrudgingly. I don't like when I receive my paycheck and I don't have my full amount because of $$ being subtracted for taxes and what not. I'm not sure that I believe that certain political figures are really God's servants appointed by him in governing roles. 

But it's all there in Romans 13. All that is written in that chapter is truth because it is God's word. God's truth is so difficult and hard to understand sometimes...

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Prayer and a broken spirit

"Masters, be just and fair to your slaves. Remember that you also have a Master—in heaven.  Devote yourselves to prayer with an alert mind and a thankful heart.  Pray for us, too, that God will give us many opportunities to speak about his mysterious plan concerning Christ. That is why I am here in chains.  Pray that I will proclaim this message as clearly as I should.  Live wisely among those who are not believers, and make the most of every opportunity.  Let your conversation be gracious and attractive so that you will have the right response for everyone." Colossians 4:1-5

How could any of God's plans be accomplished in our lives without prayer? (Well, I'm sure God can do all without our small prayers). But I'm saying that any prayer, no matter how small or big, or how much faith or doubt is present, or how often or once-in-your-lifetime you pray, a prayer is a prayer, and prayers are sweet aromas to our Father.

"You do not desire a sacrifice, or I would offer one.
You do not want a burnt offering.
The sacrifice you desire is a broken spirit.
You will not reject a broken and repentant heart, O God."
Psalm 51:16, 17

God wants us. He desires us to be with him. He loves to hear us speak to Him. And when we do, he will not forsake us. He will take our broken spirit and prayers and mold them with care into a great masterpiece. 

"For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago."  Ephesians 2:10

Tuesday, February 14, 2012


Valentine's Day.

A day when love is emphasized.

I came home during lunch break and checked the mail. The moment I saw the two envelopes in there (one addressed to my roomie, the other to me) I just had to smile. Valentine's cards from our parents. :) At that moment I just felt so grateful for my parents. My Dad has ALWAYS bought me a card on Valentine's day. He ALWAYS has been so good at making me feel special on this day. That's a good Father right there.

After work, Daniel came over and he also surprised me with a box of Junior mints (our favorite candy!!) and some red Twizzlers (one of my favorites!). :) :) :) Then we made some pancakes, bacon, eggs and had breakfast for dinner. Nothing fancy, nothing elaborate. Then we watched some Arrested Development (one of our favorite shows right now), and Daniel feel asleep. I felt special being able to spend this Feb. 14 with him and to just be close to him, even though he was sleeping. :) Then I felt bad having to wake him up so he could go home and go to bed, haha.

But the best part of all? Knowing that no matter who I spend Valentine's day with, or what I spend it doing, I am still loved. By Jesus Christ. Yes. Amen. And that is enough for me.

Lord, I pray you are enough for me every day and that my passion for you grows fuller and fuller. Thank you for Jesus Christ who has set me free from sin and death, and who has brought me into an abundant life with you, Father. You are holy and glorious, and I want to be holy for your glory. Amen!

Monday, February 13, 2012


Views from the new office...I'm very excited about this!! :)
There aren't many places here where you can get a view up this high.

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Mini-Vaca & baby steps

Last weekend I had an opportunity
to go on a mini-vacation with a friend, for a very good price. Had a GREAT time. Got an atrium view room at the Opry Land Hotel, tickets to the Grand Ole Opry Saturday night, visited an awesome church on Sunday morning, lunch at Chuy's, then a visit to the Bass Pro Shop--which I found an awesome, Columbia, might-I-add, waterproof (not water-resistent, but waterproof!) jacket ON SALE!!! I've been wanting a good waterproof jacket for several years now, so I finally found the one, and at a good price too. :)

Loved this girl, Holly Williams, at the Grand Ole Opry. I had never heard of her before, but both her songs she sang gave me chills. Am I the only one who hasn't heard of her before?!?

Anyway, on another hand, been thinking about fear lately. Thoughts about it keep creeping up in my mind, and people keep bringing it up in conversations around me, and I keep reading posts, articles, etc. about fear. I took a look at some things in my life that I have not done yet, and decided which were because of fear, and which were because of other various reasons. One thing kept sticking out so obvious in my life, something I keep putting on hold because of fear. There is no other reason for me to put this on hold any longer, and the only thing keeping me back is fear...fear of failure, fear of not being good enough, fear of lost time and effort that isn't going to pay off. SO, I decided in order to conquer this, I just need to take one baby step at a time.

Today I am proud to say I took the first baby step and am on my way to conquering this big scary task in my life. Yes, it may take a while, and yes, I might have stumbling blocks along the way, and yes, I might have to re-do some things, but hey, everything is easier the second time around, right? Either way, whatever the outcome, I decided to not let fear keep me back any longer. One baby step at a time...